First loves and true security

by Veronika

I’ve never had a first love. But I have had a first crush. It was weird, when it happened. I suddenly realized I thought he was “so cute!” and I loved the sound of his voice. In fact, that’s what got me – his voice.

Like most crushes, nothing came of it, and in fact, I doubt he does or ever will know that I was interested in him. That’s okay. He doesn’t need to know, because he’s not the one God’s planned for me.

But have you ever had one of those “first loves” that makes you stay awake at night and just pine after him? You get the flutter-butters in your stomach and you have such a hard time looking him in the eye? And if he returns your affection, well then…you might as well go order the dress now.

Eventually, though, you realized that it wasn’t real. It was pure adrenaline, a plunge-in head-first fantasy that wasn’t made of anything truly deep or steadfast. You made up ideas about that person that “just had to be true” because you created and believed in them so long, they became real. And before you know it, you’ve given a piece of your heart away, and then another, then another. Before you know it, you’ve forgotten what true love looks like – because you’ve forgotten the Person who demonstrates it to you every day.

In Day Three of Moments for Singles, Leigh affirms a truth many young ladies and women forget: “My first love is the One who “first loved me, the One who has kept on loving me through every other love of my life” (emphasis added). God is a jealous God. He wants your affection…but He loves you anyway, even when your heart is bound to someone else. He loves you. Passionately. Devotedly. Eternally.

“Receiving the love of God,” Leigh says, “does not mean I renounce my desire to be married.” I think most of us struggle with this. “God!” we wail. “If I dedicate my entire life to You, that means that I’ll never, ever get married!”

No, dear ones, it doesn’t.

Leigh continues. “Receiving God’s love does not mean I renounce my desire to be married. It means that I feel secure in knowing that I am deeply loved today – right now!” You have the biggest “security blanket” the world can’t even fathom. You have the undying, never-ending, unquenchable PASSION of an almighty God, who, as St. Augustine said, “loves each of us as if there were only one of us”! As far as God’s concerned, you’re the only one He cares about. He’s passionate and jealous for you and you only. He’s your first love because He gave up His Son for you, and He’s your security because – unlike fleeting crushes and puppy loves – He’s never, ever going anywhere.

And that, to me, is worth my whole heart. I’m content to wait for His gift of a physical marriage in the meantime. Till then, I’ll seek to “love others as He first loved me” (ref. 1 John 4:19) 

Are you with me?


2 Comments to “First loves and true security”

  1. Mmm, been loving the posts here. I may not be getting around to commenting regularly, but I’ve subscribed to e-mail notifications, and been reading everything that’s come through. Thanks for the encouraging writing!

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